If I told you about my week, you would think I was making it up- it was that rough. I opened my favorite devotional that a sweet friend gave to me last year, Streams in the Desert by Mrs. Charles E. Cowman. The book was written just for me this very week of my life:
April 10- Perhaps, the Lord is doing this to develop thy graces.
(Really this crazy could be for me? This could all be to develop grace in me?)
There are some of thy graces which would never have been discovered if it were not for the trials.
Now, how did she know she knew I had these 8 trials? I mean kids. Yes, they are most certainly showing me that I need more grace. But I don’t know if I can honestly say it is bringing it out in me.
Afflictions are often the black folds in which in which God doth set the jewels of His children’s graces, to make them shine the better.
Well I have got the opportunity for it to shine, but do I have grace? In short, no.
Often when I am reading the Bible, I find myself annoyed with the people in it. Like the Israelites- was it really that hard for the to follow God? Why did they keep messing up? Or the Pharisees- REALLY? How could they not have seen that Jesus was the Messiah? And time after time, God continued to have grace for the people in the Bible (and for me day after day). Let's be real honest: I am lucky if I don’t pull out my grace pass every hour of every day. Yet, I find it so hard to show the same grace to my kids! Like when they are whiney Israelites, hard-hearted Pharisees, or modern sinners (like their mother). I am just like the unforgiving servant in the parable Mathew 18:21-35; I beg for forgiveness from my King, and then go out and show none to others.
“Fortunately God doesn’t keep score the way we humans do”, Dr. Tim Kimmel.